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Tuesday, 23 August 2005

  • Sorry for not posting in a long ass time... a lot has been happening...and I went to california...Hollywood, Universal Studios, Seaworld, and the San Diego Zoo...it was fun...but California isn't exactly my place...in all this time I only wrote one poem and about a gazzilion unfinished ones...my goodness...well...I will put here the one I wrote...

     

    Bloody sensations

    Razor blade temptations

    loving the pain

    killing the shame

    no more life

    end my strife

    razor blade kisses

    suicide wishes

    skin and blades

    happiness fades

    veins are damaged

    hope has vanished

    scream out loud

    no longer proud

    scream inside

    last tear has been cried

    heart not mended

    the cut has ended

     

    Yeah pretty damn straight forward...pretty deep...It's just what I was feeling at the time...anways...that's all...and again...sorry for not posting in so long...I love you all...hope you still love me!!! Byebyes

    Cassy

Tuesday, 26 July 2005

  • Sorry I haven't posted anything on here in a while...I have been in a really gloomy mood. But yeah I wrote another poem. Here you go...and be sure you don't right click. It will cause you pain the second time around. Here you go now...

    As the blood
    drips to the floor
    all she thinks
    is she could have had more
    tears run slowly
    with all the red
    this was too much
    all the memories she was fed
    but then she thinks
    of the one
    who said he could stop her
    but that game wasn't won
    but all it can be now
    is too late
    this is what she is meant to be
    forgiveness was not fate
    the crying wont stop
    the blood has won
    it has taken over
    that was all too fun
    she holds her throat
    and curls in a ball
    it was all too late
    but all she could do was fall
    what else was left?
    there was nothing she could do
    except for fall into death
    hoping her life would too
    no longer any hopes
    no longer any dreams
    no longer any happy moments
    that shined like piercing beams
    the knife is glazed
    covered in red
    as she lies on the floor
    cold and dreadfully dead
    laying in her hand
    was a note from that one
    "you take your life
    I take the gun" 

     

    Well there you have it...another poem. I don't think that one was as good as my others but it's how I am feeling right now so yeah. But I'm gonna go I feel shitty. Talk to you all later. Byebyes

    Cassy

Monday, 18 July 2005

  • Okay you guys I am just going to blab on until I can think of another poem. Because I want to write another one it's just it's hot and stick and bleeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh outside and inside so I really have nowhere to escape. i need cooooooolllldddd... The only thing I like about summer is that I don't have to go to school. YUS!!!! lol but summer is almost over and that really sucks because I really really don't want to go back to school. School sucks some big butt...lol well that was a new phrase. Anyways yeah, I think I have said this once before but I am staying at a friends house for the summer. Sometimes she starts to get on my nerves but I guess that is what happens when you live with really high maintnence people. Samantha lives with her grandparents and even they are high maintnence. Like I said sometimes it gets on my nerves but most of the time I am cool with it. Sam's grandma bought me a new bathing suit and it was like 50 dollars. These are some rich people. Even though Sam says she isn't rich, she is. But yeah she was all like "I'm so used to getting everything I want and it's just how I grew up. It's not my fault I get everything I want." She doesn't know it but that set me off to no fucking extent. Do you guys have any idea how snobby that sounds? She asks for something and her grandparents do it in a snap. She begs. That's why. She is a cool person other than that but she treats her grandparents like low life money bagged shit servants. She doesn't see it either. Don't get me wrong she is the most awesomeest friend (lol and she is proabably going to read this) but I dunno maybe it's just because I am a poor little bitch and I know what it feels like to not get what I want and live in a shithole and have the worst mom ever (well not the worst but yeah) and I know all the experiences of life. And Sam knows all the experiences of the high life.  Big difference. The high life. Which is happy and full and you get everything and every bit of your family and friends love you. I am ranting...Good lord. Well anyways I just wanted to share that. Let me see if I can write a poem now...

     

    Behind my blue eyes

    I can see the real you

    Hoping you can see the real me

    but I don't think that you do

    what is it about you

    that makes me smile

    were you just pretending

    all the while?

    but don't you know dear

    the very real me?

    the person that hides so deep

    that one could never see

    but I don't think you do

    I don't think you see

    what lies behind my blue eyes

    what's trapped and no longer free

    but I can see you

    oh yes I really can

    I can see where you started

    where this first began

    Can you see these eyes?

    these tears are so very fresh

    can you really see what lies

    behind this cut and hurt flesh?

    Oh but I don't think you can

    see what really lies

    behind crystaline tears

    that come from piercing cries

    Or can you really see

    that I can really love?

    that I have a heart

    that's breaking like a porceline dove

    Can you really see

    the fear beneath my skin?

    that's keeping me from light

    now where does this begin?

    Now my eyes are dry

    with their glassy shape

    I think you came to save me

    but I think you came too late...

    Well comment and tell me what you think. You guys are great and I love you all and LOTS OF COMMENTS!! I love to read comments. Okeys well I'll be off now...I'll talk to you all later...I LOVE YOU DOUG!!!!!!! lol anyways byebyes

    Cassy

Sunday, 17 July 2005

  • Can you see the pain

    In her crystaline eyes?

    Once so bright and blue

    Now sad with dark blue cries

    Will you find the pain

    In her breaking heart?

    Or will you be like others

    And tear it right apart?

    Will you sense the sadness?

    the hurting, aching vibe

    or will you just ignore it?

    and say her happiness is alive

    and will she hold the truth

    in her aching soul?

    or will she say she's happy?

    and say her happiness is full

    but does she glitter as much

    can she really shine?

    can she really ache that much

    and then say she's really fine?

    but I think that the time will come

    and she cannot find her way

    so she wll take her life so cruely

    and that will be the day...

     

    Did you guys like it? I GOT OVER MY WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!!!!!! I AM SO FRICKEN HAPPY!! anyways please comment I love to hear comments and I hope I do!

    PS. I LOVE YOU DOUG MY PET!!!!!!

    Cassy

     

     

     

  • Ello pets...I feel so goddamn depressed today...it sucks so bad...~shivers~ I need to stay away from sharp objects for a while..or at least hwile I'm depressed...bloody hell...I hate this...anyways...I will try to write more poems..I am trying and I promised you guys I would by this week or before...I am better at writing when I'm depressed anyways...I LOVE YOU DOUG!!! YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY PET!!!! lol...good bye...

    Cassy

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